It’s true I am twelve years drug free, from a diagnosis by a psychiatrist who labeled me bipolar. Then the Christian Psychologist who I was scheduled to see, reminded me about five years ago, I was drug free. Then I began to check the calendar more frequently.

They used to call it an inferiority complex. . .when someone did not feel good about themselves. I created a felt banner, that said, “God does not make junk.” But that didn’t get into my head, or do the job, and what needed to be done to cure me.

I had to lose my self-respect and become aware of being “unworthy” to be called a daughter of God, and being adopted into His family, in spite of others around me, who have been the biggest part of my cure and sobriety!

When the psychiatrist said, “Connie, you are plenty competent you just need to feel competent in yourself.” WOW! No more bowing down to those around me? Understanding  what “words” put me down, I began to think like a robot.

“‘When I hear you say the word________(_______) it makes me feel _____________(sick in side, happy, confident, confused, sad, )

I began to be a better listener. I began to understand my feelings were true to me, but I tried to stuff them inside, so others would not see me, hear me, or listen to me. Then I got divorced and felt freed from one who said, “You cannot go to heaven, you are fat and you not in control of what you eat.” (shame on you!)  And in this “higher, then thou, attitude, my X went out on a quest to find a Number 10, and his rating scale. But there was none better for him, that another man’s wife.

And in “coveting” the thought, that he could do better, it lead to adultery, and there is a Bible verse, about Jesus Christ being THE BRIDEGROOM of HIS CHURCH and “we” are the BRIDEMAIDS….waiting for OUR BRIDEGROOM TO COME! But what did read?

Dan 7:21 I beheld, and the same horn made war with the saints, and prevailed against them; Dan 7:22 Until the Ancient of days came, and judgment was given to the saints of the most High; and the time came that the saints possessed the kingdom. Dan 7:23 Thus he said, The fourth beast shall be the fourth kingdom upon earth, which shall be diverse from all kingdoms, and shall devour the whole earth, and shall tread it down, and break it in pieces. Dan 7:24 And the ten horns out of this kingdom are ten kings that shall arise: and another shall rise after them; and he shall be diverse from the first, and he shall subdue three kings. Dan 7:25 And he shall speak great words against the most High, and shall wear out the saints of the most High, and think to change times and laws: and they shall be given into his hand until a time and times and the dividing of time. Dan 7:26 But the judgment shall sit, and they shall take away his dominion, to consume and to destroy it unto the end. Dan 7:27 And the kingdom and dominion, and the greatness of the kingdom under the whole heaven, shall be given to the people of the saints of the most High, whose kingdom is an everlasting kingdom, and all dominions shall serve and obey him.

Did you “hear” who makes “war” against the Most High, by thinking to change the times and laws of God? THIS IS THE ANTICHRIST!

IS it OK to walk away from the Marriage of the Lamb to His Bride?

Or is this the 7th Law of God, about “Thou shalt not commit adultery” and walk away from the marriage of the lamb, a Jew, to His Bride who is now called a “disciple of Christ.” And it completes the relationship between my God and I, where Jews come to see Jesus and I come to see Jesus as a Jew?

Or was this what LUCIFER is trying to do, in undermining the Government of God, he is trying to prostitute all who come to him in some way or the other?

Can Lucifer change the law to say: “It is ok to steal your neighbor’s wife?”

NOW HERE IS THE POINT: In Evolution the CAVE MAN tries to catch a woman, but he fails in many ways, until he lifts his arm and she faints, and he hauls her off to HIS CAVE.

In evolution man is to evolve to a higher level of wisdom and attainment. However the smarter they are, the more their money can buy.  And in draining THE SWAMP we have to listen to every lie that has been told, in many different ways, until the LAWS OF GOD, are not longer A CIVIL CODE, or MORAL LAW, or any different from animals who do not have a frontal lobe.

I have just studied what happened, when the Ark of God was taken by the Philistines. I also have the Greek translation of the disease they got when they took the Ark and opened the door see THE LAW written there.

1Sa 5:11 So they sent and gathered together all the lords of the Philistines, and said, Send away the ark of the God of Israel, and let it go again to his own place, that it slay us not, and our people: for there was a deadly destruction throughout all the city; the hand of God was very heavy there. 1Sa 5:12 And the men that died not were smitten with the emerods: and the cry of the city went up to heaven.

It was a very painful and deadly destruction.  If someone had studied the Bible and about the penalty for opening the ARK before they filmed INDIANA JONES AND THE RAIDERS OF THE LOST ARK, something so deadly would happen if they found it, it would probably make their eyes cross with excruciating pain!

Which Law that Jesus wrote with His finger should we remove?

Is it OK to bare false witness about Our Messiah a Jew?

Is it OK to steal the neighbors wife and haul her off to your cave?

Is it OK to make fun of your Mother and Father?

Is it OK to murder or even THINK of murdering your spouse or anyone else?

Is it OK to bow down and worship an idol?

Is it OK to mock God by using His name in vain?

Is it OK to think to change the TIMES AND LAWS OF GOD?


Yes, I am saved by the blood of the Lamb, Jesus Christ a Jew is My Saviour too!

However, we were singing along with the choir and symphony at the College View Church in Lincoln, Nebraska:

Isaiah 9:6 “For unto us a child is born, unto us a son is given: and the government shall be upon his shoulder: and his name shall be called Wonderful, Counsellor, The mighty God, The everlasting Father, The Prince of Peace.”

And this child was born, and a son was given. And THE GOVERNMENT OF GOD SHALL BE UPON THE SHOULDER OF a JEW. AND HIS NAME IS WONDERFUL, counsellor, The mighty God, The Everlasting Father, the Prince of Peace.

AND which law of the TEN, would make THE JEWS THE MOST HATED? THE ONE THAT CLAIMS THERE IS A GOD WHO TRULY UNDERSTOOD HE WOULD HAVE TO MAKE A PLAN OF SALVATION THAT WOULD REQUIRE A HUMAN SACRIFICE…that also prove the Government of GOD knew one day man would “create” a “plan” and “an alien” that too would try to RULE THE WORLD.

And what would we do, when a man tries to be perfect, when he is not, and when he wants to fight THE RED DRAGON, the invisible god, behind ISIS…then MAN can UNDERSTAND, what happens when a man, 666 creates an AI, Artificial Intelligence, that the greatest minds in the world, are thinking, something perfect, itself, my try to take over our WORLD.

And this was given to an alien among us, to try and convince us, that we will already KNOW, what happens when “the created” must be “unworthy” to be THE CREATOR…and in all humility it was worth it to be bipolar and understand those who told me, they saw a “fence” on fire, but it was not on fire. They saw bugs jumping on the table, but they “knew” there were no bugs on the table in front of us.

Can GOD undo the work of the evil one,  who wishes to never see another miracle like LAZARUS being raised from the DEAD be done again!

A man may appear to be the Christ, the character of Jesus perfectly reproduced in man. But this Christ, can not raise us off the earth, into the sky, to be raptured into the HOLY SPACE, from which he came to CRUCIFY CHRIST! The very one he knew in Heaven, the very place Lucifer walked, talked, sang and entertained in the Heavens, then turned against the ONE WHO MADE HIM. And the rest is history.

Isa 14:12 How art thou fallen from heaven, O Lucifer, son of the morning! how art thou cut down to the ground, which didst weaken the nations! Isa 14:13 For thou hast said in thine heart, I will ascend into heaven, I will exalt my throne above the stars of God: I will sit also upon the mount of the congregation, in the sides of the north: Isa 14:14 I will ascend above the heights of the clouds; I will be like the most High.

Isa 14:4 That thou shalt take up this proverb against the king of Babylon, and say, How hath the oppressor ceased! the golden city ceased! Isa 14:5 The LORD hath broken the staff of the wicked, and the sceptre of the rulers. Isa 14:6 He who smote the people in wrath with a continual stroke, he that ruled the nations in anger, is persecuted, and none hindereth. Isa 14:7 The whole earth is at rest, and is quiet: they break forth into singing.

BABYLON the GREAT, given permission to “test the righteousness” and God judged his people first, and they too would crucify the Christ, the Jew whose fingers wrote the LAW that would “be broken” again and again, and require the DEATH OF A LAMB, until man came to see…..HE IS LIKE ME.  HE IS THE GOD. HE IS THE LAMB.

1Sa 15:22 And Samuel said, Hath the LORD as great delight in burnt offerings and sacrifices, as in obeying the voice of the LORD? Behold, to obey is better than sacrifice, and to hearken than the fat of rams.
1Sa 15:23 For rebellion is as the sin of witchcraft, and stubbornness is as iniquity and idolatry. Because thou hast rejected the word of the LORD, he hath also rejected thee from being king.
1Sa 15:24 And Saul said unto Samuel, I have sinned: for I have transgressed the commandment of the LORD, and thy words: because I feared the people, and obeyed their voice.


WHy does Our King come in the dark clouds about the size of HUMAN HAND, with CLOUD SO MENACING…the elite are ready to hide in the ground?

And the fear of the LORD, is the beginning of WISDOM! Psalms 111:10


Not for this earth alone, but for the Universe to know and understand, no one is forced to believe in THE ALIEN who created, the monsters at the END OF THE BOOK, who can only be conquered by HIS CREATOR.

The war is between Michael the Archangel and Lucifer in HEAVEN. GOD has created you to HAVE FREEDOM and since He is the SOURCE OF YOUR FREEDOM He can also give you a choice, to have eternal life: . . . .or not. Choose ye this day whom ye will serve, IF GOD THEN GOD, if LUCIFER AND HIS ANGELS…then LUCIFER AND HIS ANGELS.

GOD BLESS YOU AND YOUR MIND, and find time to check your emotions and and in trusting God, His Wisdom and Power, do NOT BE FRIGHTENED, Satan lost the war when Jesus bore your sins, upon His head, so SATAN CANNOT RETURN TO HEAVEN!

Can you say AMEN, AMEN and AMEN!

Confess your sins and God will place them on the head of THE GOAT, who will no longer ESCAPE THE PUNISHMENT OF FIRE BEING MADE FOR HIM and his angels.


Mark 6:11 “And whosoever shall not receive you, nor hear you, when ye depart thence, shake off the dust under your feet for a testimony against them. Verily I say unto you, It shall be more tolerable for Sodom and Gomorrha in the day of judgment, than for that city.”

Sodom and Gomorrah were known for being homosexual,  gays and lesbians. If you are not received or someone will not listen to you, shake off the dust under your feet for it will be more tolerable for you in the day of judgment than for that city!

This started with me going on a spending spree when my husband said, “Go spend some money we made $7,000.00 today take the kids and buy them new bikes.”  Then we really had a big day! I ordered a new gold Lexus, a used golf cart, a new computer for the church, paid the workers who were landscaping our new house, with rock waterfall and slide into the swimming pool. They had not been paid, so we went to the bank and came back with a hand full of dollar bills, much to their dismay, but that day there was an ARMOURED CAR at the bank, and we felt like little robbers, with the LOOT. They hadn’t eaten breakfast so we drove through McDonalds, with our Mercedes and didn’t have a cent, but they took a check when we ordered Egg McMuffins without the meat. We forgot to take the laundry to the cleaners, so we had to back to the house for that. We ate lunch in town and a burglar alarm went off, and it seem like our world was upside down. We had also taken back the extra violin, because our son must test and decide which one he liked. When the express company asked for how much insurance I needed and the value of the violin….I truly wanted to say Stradivarius. So I was laughing out loud at thought. But when my husband came home and asked, “What did you do today?” WE ALL LAUGHED!

I must admit I laughed a lot, but THAT DAY was THE LAST DAY that I would laugh about being “forced” to take bipolar meds. I did not think twice about going to be “observed” at the Modesto Psychiatric Hospital for 24 hours. I thought the whole thing was hilarious, which it was. (Yes, I did leave out a few things) We did drive the gold Lexus for two years!  But I voluntarily took the pills, so when I took the test for competency 16 years later, I was feeling competent in GOD. And that was why, I do not have to be competent in myself. lol

I just know, I do not want to undermine the government of God, and I do not want to undermine the CHARACTER WHO DIED FOR ME…He is quite a character and His judgments are made manifest, as pure, holy and just! There is good judge in town and He is on his way down to pick you up and take you where you will never be tempted to sin again!

It is amazing what fun you can have without smoking, wine or dining! We need a little more creative thinking in ways to have fun without it. IT CAN BE DONE and HAS BEEN DONE on the Campus of Union College in Lincoln, Nebraska.

I guess the best illustration of creativity is this school song:

At Union College in Lincoln Nebraska, we slinga da ink and pass the pen along.

Never until now, did I realize how, that song would bring me to slinga da ink and hope that you have found the source of my sanity is in having competency in the way Jesus made me. If you have any confusion about me, you can take it up for an eternity in Heaven! Then we can have a night to bash and ROAST THE KING, when men like Peter will say: “YOU TOLD ME TO BRING THE KNIFE!”  “You knew I was ready to fight!” “Then you picked up that ear, and put it back on his head!” Can you see the snicker on the face of Jesus, trying not to laugh at Peter?

What was that? It wasn’t funny at the time? (WEll, is WAS FUNNY AT THE TIME ME AND BOYS WENT SHOPPING, but that didn’t last!) Are you going to blame me for that? YOU KNEW I WAS READY TO LAUGH! Then I walked down the hall with a piece of toilet paper tucked in the back of my pants…like a GIANT MOUSE…then they put in a padded cell…and that was NOT ENOUGH…I KEPT IT UP..and in front of the MIRROR the two faced mirror…I KNEW THEY WERE LOOKING…so I did my fathers RAIN DANCE around the table in the middle, where I would spend the night, thinking…that wasn’t very bright! lol

HI YI YA YA HI YI YA YA…its kinda fun normally, when daddy did it. lol BUT being “normal” in crazy world..its not hard for me to get out of hand…My son wanted a wife who would be “sassy” and talk back. I was not that kind of wife, then, but you can understand …I AM NOW! I have no pent up feelings…its kinda great being on the RIGHT SIDE OF LIFE…and hiding behind his robe of HIS RIGHEOUSNESS…to keep my feet on the ground!